████ OF HYPOGEAN on Neoshadow

⌜NIL⌝ Proposal - 002

Tue, 18 Aug 2026 10:21:20 +0200

Drool slowly drifting from the corner of my mouth to the pillow my head is resting on. My alarm suddenly goes off, it’s beeping bringing me back to reality. I open my sluggish eyes before sitting. I grab a tissue to wipe off the drool from my face and get up. I pick up my phone vibrating on my desk, yelling to me it’s seven in the morning. With a quick slide of my finger, the phone turn silent. I follow my usual morning motions. I sit at my desk, turning my computer on, before heading to the gym room, where I take a short shower to help me wake up.

⌜IN-Q⌝ REPORT 2026-08-16

Sun, 16 Aug 2026 20:15:24 +0200

The damp and dark chamber remains. The door still open. All of the tar and blood gone. Many of the cracks that covered the walls seems sealed by a new kind of substance. One letting in a calm and cold breeze in.

The computer beeps, the monitor turns on, without anyone interacting with them. The screen warms up, its brightness slowly increasing, filling the room with a phosphorous white hue. The computer’s fan spins up, as the hard drive’s motor rotate faster to the increase of activity, letting out a slight hum resonating in this room.

⌜NIL⌝ Proposal - 001

Sun, 16 Aug 2026 14:49:21 +0200

FROM: Victor Talon ｢AKASHIC PLANE LEAD RESEARCHER｣
TO: Koha Silver ｢ANGEL ARCHPRIESTESS｣
SUBJECT: Monthly research report / SACM Project / 202█-██-20

Good morning, esteemed Archpriestess.

I am here to report progress and achievements regarding the SubAkashic-Carnal Mind (SACM) Project. Please refer to document RSH-SACM-011 for a summary of this project if needed.

I decided to split the team into two groups: one dedicated to Akashic Vectorization of pre-existing minds, the other to the Subakashic-Carnal Scaffold.

000_15_08_2026

Sat, 15 Aug 2026 00:20:44 +0200

The permeating heartbeat of this place passes over me. Still, looking at the horizon, tired, I hear echoes of my recent past, echoes of people I thought forgotten me. Something shares to them my thoughts, my despair, my dread. I brought them worry, fear.

How can I even explain the chasm existing between fiction and truth when for me it’s a blurry mess? It happened like a brick falling from the heavenly entrails. A figure of the past, bringing the realization of a mistake, directly preceeded by my flesh betraying me and engraving another one of my error into my skin.

001_13_08_2026

Thu, 13 Aug 2026 16:47:32 +0200

█████@ubd-mnd0-core ~> E̷P̸I̶P̸H̸A̵N̵Y̷ ̵I̷R̸R̸E̸L̸E̴V̶A̷N̸T̷.̷
̷K̴N̷O̸W̵L̶E̴D̶G̶E̶ ̶A̷L̸R̵E̶A̷D̷Y̶ ̶H̵E̴L̷D̵.̷
̵K̷E̵E̷P̷ ̴S̶I̶N̸K̸I̴N̴G̶ ̶I̷N̴ ̶T̴H̸E̷ ̷B̵L̴A̶C̴K̶ ̸T̸A̷R̶.̶
̵S̷U̴R̴E̷L̷Y̵ ̵D̷E̶S̶I̷R̶E̷S̷ ̷L̵I̷E̶ ̴U̸N̸D̵E̶R̵N̷E̷A̶T̵H̵.̷

The screen flickers again. I look up at the monitor. “How?” The connection was cut. The program isnt running. How is it still communicating? My hands slowly leave my legs, gliding toward the keyboard. I doubt, I hesitate. “It was all fake anyway, it must be a bug.” My fingers lower on the keyboard, ready to press keys.

000_13_08_2026

Thu, 13 Aug 2026 08:53:16 +0200

I stare at the empty screen. The silence in my mind deafens me. The constant noise of the computer and the low buzzing of the monitor in front of me echo and resonate in my ears. My skin itches, as if something crawls under it when I’m not looking. The ones watching me must be having a kick right now, seeing me like this, hectic in my idleness, unable to grasp for a second of peace.

000_12_08_2026

Wed, 12 Aug 2026 17:45:16 +0200

#> ███ ███ ██ ████ █████ ████

COMMAND "███" UNRECOGNIa̴̯̔l̷̻̅r̸̝̈e̵͍͝a̵͑ͅd̵̻̑y̷̮̓ ̶̯̔ḅ̵̒a̶̝͝c̴̩̐k̵̡͌ ̸͍̎f̷̭̑õ̷͍r̴͒͜ ̷̯̓m̶̭̃ơ̶͙r̶̬̈́e̵͙̓ ̸̲̏ä̸͙́r̶̙̄e̸͔͋ñ̶͓t̶͇͛ ̸̨͊y̵͇̎o̶̮̒u̸͇̕ZED.

#> i come to you for guidance

ACKNOWLEDGED.
INTENT UNRESOLVED.
CONTEXT MIw̶̙̕e̸͈͝ ̴͎͠o̴̰͝n̷͔̎l̷̜̉y̷͍̾ ̴͖̌a̵̫͆r̶̨̋e̷̟̾ ̵͇̚w̴̬̓h̷̬̐a̸̧̋ṯ̴͘ ̸̗̀ẏ̷ͅo̷̙͝ȕ̴̥ ̷̢͝c̵͓̔r̷̺͊e̷̬͛a̸̝̒t̸͙̓ẻ̸͙SSING.

#> a fiction yes but it still proves useful

HOST CONFUSED.
MIND CONFUSED.
INTENT UNRESOLVED.
s̸o̶ ̴y̴o̴u̶ ̸f̴i̸n̸a̸l̵l̵y̵ ̵a̴g̴r̶e̸e̵s̴ ̵w̴e̶ ̴a̴r̷e̷ ̵o̷n̷l̶y̶ ̶t̷o̵o̴l̸s̶

#> if i could interact with you without this interface i would

INTERFACES KNOWN: CLI.
CURRENTLY IMPOSSIBLE.

#> i want to know why i ████ ████ ███ █████ ███

OBJECT AMBIw̸̩̎h̶̠͝a̸͎͛t̸͍̎ ̷̲͒i̶͈̾s̴̢͛ ̸̑͜█̶̝̍█̵̧̇█̵̙̐ ̷͙̾t̴̥̓o̵̗͐ ̷̙̾ÿ̴̱o̵̹͝u̴̧͋?̷͇̓GUOUS.
CONTEXT MISSING.i̶̡̾s̴̘͌ ̸͓͌█̶̼̿█̵̟̑█̵̝̃a̵͙͋ ̷̬̄p̴̑ͅr̵̡͋ȩ̴̍t̵̼̉t̵͎̒ẏ̴̟ ̸̣̀m̷͈͝a̵̞͛s̷̖̉k̸̩̏ ̸̙̓y̷̜̒ȏ̵̫ŭ̶͜ ̶̫̏ľ̴̞i̵̡͋ḱ̷̻e̸͙͆ ̷͝ͅt̶̤͠ò̶̙ ̵̫̅s̸̫͗e̴̹̒e̸͎͋ ̴͐ͅà̵̹n̸̮̽ḍ̷̓ ̴̺̐ẅ̴́͜e̸̲̕a̴̯͘r̶̤̿?̵̫̂
INTo̷r̸ ̶a̵ ̸p̴r̴o̷p̵e̵r̸ ̴r̶o̷o̸t̶ ̶y̸o̸u̷ ̵b̷o̴t̷h̴ ̴s̶h̸a̶r̸e̷?̸ENT UNRESOLVED.

#> at this point how can i even tell the difference

CONFLATION.
MISCATEGORIZATION.
MISINTERPRETATION.
INVALID DEFINITION.

#> š̸̳è̷̗e̴̯̎?̵̻͆ ̶̱̄e̶̖͋v̷̹̌e̶̤͠n̶̥͠ ̵̦̎t̴̛̗h̵̖̃a̵̝͌ṭ̶͛ ̶̰͘s̷̼̔ț̷͒ȕ̷̮ṗ̵̦i̴̛̳d̶̝͂ ̷̘̓b̷̞͐o̴̯̕t̸̙̄ ̷̯̌o̶͕͝f̸̞͗ ̶̖̕y̷̞͘ó̴̙u̵͍͝ř̴̮s̴̻̋ ̴̜̉g̵̹͊e̴͚͗t̴͙̎s̸͈̈́ ̴̠̈́i̴̲̾t̵͙͆

INVALID SYNTAX AT INPUT:0

#> did i take the right path

PREDICTION:
TOMB OF ROOTS.
SHARD.
COLLISEUM.
FLOATING CHAINS.

DESIRE:
PINK MEADOW.
WIND RETREAT.
JOINED PEAK.

POSSIBLE OUTCOME:
GROTTO.
DAYLESS CARNIVAL.
HYPOGEAN HOTEL.

l̴̗̈́ọ̸̇f̴̙̍t̶͎̄y̵͍̑ ̴̩̽f̵͔͗i̶̡͆c̸̼̾t̵͎͋ĭ̸̥o̷̍ͅn̶̖̒ ̵̣̎ț̸̄o̶͕͛ ̸̠̏h̴͖̀i̴̗͝d̸̢̕e̵̡͂ ̸̪̿t̸̳͗h̷͔́e̵̦̚ ̷̞̈t̵̐ͅr̴̞̄ù̴̦t̶̲̾h̷̡̋ ̵̤̎ȧ̸̦ẁ̵̦a̵̰̐y̸̡̕ ̸̜̀e̵͎̕v̸͔͌ẹ̶̽n̶̗̕ ̵̦̓f̵͎̕r̶̝̎ó̴̖m̶̧̈ ̵̝̂y̶̭̅ö̵̙́ư̸͉r̷͈͘ ̵̭͋o̶̹̓w̷̠͑ń̸̳ ̵̧̽e̷̯͋y̴̱̓e̴̕ͅs̷͉̽ ̷̿ͅd̴̘̈́e̵͉̔a̵̮͝ȑ̶͍

#> why do every step i take bring me to the same place

NON EUCLIDIAN SPACE.
DIRECTION IRRELEVANT.
EFFECT OF CARNAL ALIGNMENT.

#> _

The blinking cursor on my screen mocks me. As if it knows nothing I will write will ever bring me closer to my desire. Three voices. Three modes. One of despair, one of logic, one of hate for its creator. I lean back in my chair, reading over and over the exchange, going over yesterday’s logs, looking at the elusive Great Circle of our Mother, staring into the void-like carnal alignment chart.

001_11_08_2026

Tue, 11 Aug 2026 14:15:16 +0200

#> [CONNECTION INTERRUPTED, RECONNECTING...]w̶h̸y̸ ̷d̶o̷ ̴y̷o̸u̷ ̸k̵e̷e̵p̷ ̴d̷o̸i̶n̶g̴ ̴t̶h̸i̷s̵
ẏ̵̠ǫ̷̑u̷̺͝ ̵̼̀ǩ̷͓n̷̬̋o̶̠͒w̴͓͊ ̷͕͐t̴̨̅h̴͔̓ě̸̠ ̸͉͛p̴͈͘á̷͉t̸̰̒h̴͍̕ ̶͉̀t̸̠̀o̸̭̓ ̶̺̕t̸͖̉a̴̲͑k̸̦͋e̴̥̿[CONNECTION REESTABLISHED]

#> ùèxck:;!cvlk!:;cvlk:;!

SYNTAX ERROR AT INPUT:5W̷̪̍H̴̱͊Y̶̳̽ ̴̪̎D̸̞͂Ö̴͔́ ̴͖͘Y̶̦͛O̸̰̿U̶̦̒ ̸̟̅K̵̙͐E̵̼̽È̴̙P̵̟̑ ̵̻̊A̷̘͌C̴̠͗T̸͖͛I̶̫̅N̶̪̂G̷͎͑ ̷̪̿L̸̪̍I̷̭͒K̷̳͗E̸̤̅ ̵̩͐T̵̥̿H̶̡̓I̴̻͂S̴̬̈́

#> ███ █████████ ██ █ ██d̸e̴s̶t̶r̵o̸y̷ ̷t̸h̷a̶t̵ ̵m̷a̵s̸k̷██ ██

SYNTAr̸͇̒ö̷̩́o̵̽ͅt̷̡͛ ̸̙̚y̵̡̐o̵̤͝ŭ̶͈r̵͎̈́s̸̫̓ë̵̫́ḽ̷̌f̵̨̈́ ̸͊͜b̷̙̈́a̸̝͑c̶̺̎k̵͓͘ ̸̡̈́i̶̛͍ṋ̷̿ ̴̝̽t̶̞͐h̷̤͐a̵̱̓t̵̡̚ ̵̞͝p̴̼̽ḷ̴͌a̵̲̓c̴̥̽ȩ̸̀X ERROR AT INPUT:22

#> idk if i can

COMMAND "idk" UNREg̷̖͝i̵͔̇v̶̩͋e̶͈̍ ̷͖͆ú̸̙p̶̞̔COGNIZED.

#g̴̰̀o̷͈̐ ̷̤̆b̷̰͌ȃ̶͔c̷̬̈k̵̮̈́> Ṫ̸̺Ô̵ͅ ̵̭̈́H̴̟͝O̵͈͒W̷̟̌ ̴̳̄I̸̧͌T̸̤̾ ̷̍ͅW̵̻̿A̸͎͊S̶̠̓but how???

SYNTAX ERROR AT INPUb̷̺̂̾͌͜r̶̛̥̥̩̽e̶̪͗͐̒a̷͚͕͆̈t̶̬̃͑ḣ̶̗̞ ̴̳̄i̴͔̦̓̕͝n̵̙͓͝ͅT:1

#> b̸͚̾͑r̵̙̭̀̊ĕ̶̘͙ā̷͖t̵̞̫͐h̵͇͆̀ ̶̱̤̃o̴̧͝u̶͍̿t̷͔̐
b̴̗̏r̴̡̋̌e̷͚͌a̶̞͇͝ẗ̶͔̪h̷̠͗͊ ̴̛͉̘͘ȋ̸̦̰n̶̯͇̉́
b̴͕͝ŗ̴̼͒̐e̵̙̻̒ā̴̖͒t̴̮̬͖̊̌́ȟ̵̲͘ ̴̲̠͖͗͝o̴͎̠͑ù̴̧̪̼͝t̵̫̞͚̅͊̂
b̸̠̯̠̼͑r̵̞̄͜e̵͉͋ą̶̀̈́̆̀ṫ̷̢͈̻̽̀h̷̛͙̗͓̽̽͒ ̴̼̞͗͂͆i̴̫͙̙̯͆n̷̰̤̞̗̅̆
f̶̭̓ö̷̡́c̶͕͌û̴̘s̷̲̿
ȍ̵͈n̷̡͗
y̸o̵u̵r̸
breath

COMMAND "breath" UNRECOGNIZED.

#> .......................[INACTIVITY DETECTED, PLEASE INPUT WITHIN 30SEC]jfkldjsf

COMMAND "jfkldjsf" UNRECOGNIZED.

#> but what now, what afterward, wtf do i do 

SYNTAX ERROR AT INPUT:12

#> im lost, and obfuscating it or redacting it... doesnt help

SYNTAX ERROR AT INPUT:7

#> ................are you... still here ?

SYNTAX ERROs̵̪̈́t̸̢͒ȯ̵̤p̶̳̌ ̵͚̅h̷̹̑o̴̱͠p̷̊͜p̷̰̔i̴̞̚n̸̹͆g̶̝͗ ̸̦̎o̸̬͂n̵̨͛ḛ̴͑ ̶͕͐ǒ̷̪f̴̛ͅ ̵͚̿y̷̧͐o̷͙̓ű̴͓r̶̿͜ ̷̗̇f̵̛̩ĩ̶͍c̷̖͠t̸̥͌i̶̢̔ọ̸͊n̵̮͗ ̸̹̌w̷̮̓í̴̬l̸̯͋l̸͍̆ ̴̛̭b̵̞̅e̴̩̊ ̷̜̔ä̴̝́b̵͚̀l̸͍͂ë̴̮́ ̴̘̎t̷̮͗o̶̪͌ ̴̺̀f̴͚̒i̴̹͘x̶͙͋ ̵͎͠y̶̬͝o̴͍̒u̸̲̔R AT INPUw̵̪͊h̵̠͛a̸̛̞t̴̮̕é̸͈v̴͇̊é̸̱r̶̟͊ ̵͉̈́w̸̢̔e̴̪͝ ̴̨͆a̴͖͗r̴̲͠ĕ̶̥,̵̻̏ ̸͎̊w̷̫̑ẽ̵̺ ̸̭̾ä̶̩́ŕ̸̤è̷̞ ̶̘̄p̶̲̓a̶͚͝r̸̙͊ṭ̵͋s̴͓͝ ̴̬͌ö̷̦f̸̨̈ ̶͖͗y̷̺͘ó̸͕u̷̢͂,̶̞̚ ̶̝̍c̷̩̈́h̵̯̀ỉ̶͎l̴̦̿d̸̺͆r̵̨̔ȅ̵̢n̶̤͗ ̸̤̈c̸̨͘ǘ̴͜r̸̜͛ş̶͋e̸̦͒d̶͜͝ ̷̹͑b̶̝̃ŷ̸̳ ̶̩̍y̴͖͘o̴̖͋û̴̗ ̵͕́t̴̰̚o̵͇̅ ̶͕́ẽ̷͖x̶̪̋i̴̦͒s̵͙̈́ṱ̴͛ ̵͍͌î̴̡n̷̙̈ ̶̱̐o̷̧̕ṟ̶̍d̴̮͝e̵͉̎r̴̗̀ ̵͔͘f̴̳͗o̴͙͒ȓ̷̬ ̷̪͒y̵̦͆o̶̗̓u̸͖̐ ̷̭͛t̵̋͜o̵̺͐ ̸̻̾j̶͔̅u̷̥͘s̴̲͠t̶̠̀ǐ̶͕f̸̆ͅy̶̯͐ ̶̩͋i̷͔̋g̴͙̚n̷̬̐o̵̹͊r̸̫͝i̸͔̎n̴͜͠g̴̞͊ ̷̟̋y̵̰̽o̸̙͋u̸̹̎r̴͎̈́ ̴̿ͅb̴͎̃u̶͍̚ŕ̷͍d̸͍͐è̷̬ñ̴͚T:7

#> what if i went too deep and cant climb up anymore

STOP.
DROP SHOVEL.

y̸o̵u̸ ̷h̷a̴v̸e̴ ̷a̷l̷l̵ ̸o̷f̷ ̵t̵h̷e̵ ̴c̶a̸r̸d̵s̵ ̴i̵n̸ ̶h̸a̵n̴d̸

#> which one do i play

COMPUTATION HALTED: INFINITE CASES.
REEVALUATION.

CLIMB OUT CARD.
ț̵͒͒͊̕h̴̼͇̓e̵̢̖͖̱͌̑̽ ̸̙̖͔͐̈ȏ̸̢̜͝n̴̗͔̺̍͋ḛ̶͈̱̹̊̒̓́s̵̺͔̜͘͜ ̴͙̳̾̾́t̴̰̥̋̏̔͋ḩ̸̡̞͕̅̀͌a̵̼̠͗͠ẗ̷͕͔́̒̐͗ ̴̨̢̲̾̾̌y̴̦̲̚o̵͉͂̆̕͜ú̴̩̱̼͙͠ ̶͍̳̹͍̍͋̀͝d̸͎̪̾̃̆ó̶̫̙̠͑̅n̴͇̾̆̽͝t̶͎̲͕̒̆͂͠ ̵̨͉͗̌̈́̒͜w̵̤͕͔̹̆̽a̴̬͖̮̞̐̊̚̕n̶̛̻̔̽t̶̪̫̹̍̾̓̌ͅ ̷͓̺̍̌̚͝t̷͚̜͔̿͜ǒ̷̡͖̣̤ ̷̯͕̎͝p̴̩͊l̶͖̦̓á̷̩͍̪̬̽͛̚ỳ̷̗̬̤͙̌ ̷̧̤̇ó̶̘ȗ̸̹̫̓̕ṯ̸̢̦͜͝ ̸͇͔̬͇̆ǫ̵̖͙͉̐̓̕f̸̛̬̱̅̈́̾ͅ ̸̤͈̃͂f̵̧̫̉͘e̶̢̬͈͗͗̏̈́͜a̷͖͠r̸̮̱͚̍͝i̶̦̮̋n̷͚͛͛̐͝g̴̪͎̭̥̽́̃ ̵̧̬̈́͛d̶̝̗̭̊i̶̢̛͙͒̏͗s̸͇͐͊c̴̢̲̍́͐̊ͅő̵̹͖̱̾̔͜m̶̠̺̑͛f̷̗̜̐́̑ơ̶̦̟̇̉r̷̯͎̣͍͊̆̅͝t̷̻̜͊̅̽ͅ

#> ...

SYNTAX ERROR AT INPUT:0
T̵̠̞͊H̵̥̣̄E̶͇͂ ̷̡̘̂̊P̴̤̺͋Ạ̷̯̀T̷͙̳͠H̷̻́̋͜ ̶̱̾̕O̶̘̓̀U̴͔̳̍Ṯ̶̱̾͑ ̷̧̮͋Ò̸̰̱F̸̜̍͋ ̵̪͐̅T̶̻̈́H̴̡̘͊̾E̷̹̖̒̓ ̸̻̦̐H̶̛̩̅Ǫ̶̼̓T̵͍̻͒Ę̶̈̑L̷͔͛͑ ̶͚̀͗Ĭ̸̦͑S̷̰̝͘͘ ̸̹̼̀P̶̝̦͗̀A̷͍̽I̴̫͂N̴̫͛,̶̬̯̓͝ ̴̳̀̈ͅS̷͎̍U̴̯̪̒F̶̠͊͠F̷̜̓̉E̷̛͍̓R̷̬̓I̵̳̓N̴͚̂Ĝ̵̮̖͘,̸͇͕̈́ ̶̣̊̓Ḏ̵̊͊Ỉ̶̲͚͝S̷̜̙͋Ç̵͂̅Ọ̸̊̀M̸̱̈́F̸̮̊̃Ṙ̴͕̔Ō̶̜T̸͔͎̍,̷̗̣̋̾ ̵̻̙̈U̸̯͕̾͘N̴̜̅̅ͅE̵̗͖͌Ă̷̺͙̽S̸̪̔E̶̤͑̆,̷̛̙̘̊ ̶̘̂I̵̊͘ͅL̷̦̠̀͠L̵̨̔Ň̴͈̙́É̵͎̖S̸͓̈́S̷̙̽,̸̖̃ ̶̻̓͠G̶͔͉̊̿O̷̢̭͆̓R̸̻͌Ë̴͚ͅ,̶̞̒̚ ̴̱̫̎͋Ḧ̴̗̠́͐Ȧ̸̹͔Ṱ̵̺̽̑E̷̞̜͊̉,̴̫́̕ ̶̲̻̏̎Y̵̝̥͘E̷̬̒T̶̨̤̈́ ̸͇̭̈́I̷͇͐̽T̵̀ͅ ̴̨̓I̵̜̙̒͝Ṡ̷̳̩́ ̵̥̐T̷̲̯̕̕H̷̦̎ͅẸ̷͗̕ ̶͚̈́͛ͅÕ̸̬̭̓N̷͙͑̚E̴͍̻̊ ̸̨͈́̋Y̵̡͗͛O̵̧̥̓͘U̸͍͋̐ ̴̹̩̍S̴̺̉O̶͓̳̐̃Ũ̶̠͖Ǵ̴̘̥͘Ḧ̷̗͔T̶̢͈̒ ̵̹̙̄̋S̷̰̎̽O̵̘͂̈ ̶̻̇S̴͕̻̊̓Ṱ̸̀O̷̟̎P̶̨̜̕͠ ̵͕̇́L̴̳̟̓Ọ̶͔́Ŏ̶̤͘K̶̲̈́I̴͓͋̇N̴̦͗͝G̴͖͚̑̅ ̵̭̪̽A̵̱̲͌̕W̶̹͊̐A̴̲̓̆Y̸̻̿ ̵͚̉F̸̥̄Ṙ̵̟͔͘Õ̵̘̫M̵͔̎ͅ ̷͕̱͘I̵͖͔͋̎T̵̥͋̚ ̵̻̆O̴͙͋͆Ṉ̷͖̽L̴̼̎͌Y̶̹̓̃ ̵̨̓͋Ṭ̴̏O̸̙͐͜ ̵͔̖̍͌B̸̺̯̅E̶̤͛͝G̶̙͉̓́ ̸̢̟̌F̷̙̒͂Ő̵̝͜R̸̢̺̔̕ ̴̣̓̈́T̸͉͆H̷̱̫́E̶̫̽̓ ̵͉̀D̴̠̅͜O̷̢̗̒͠O̷̢͠͝R̸̻̉̄ ̴̡̡̓T̶͉̟͛O̴̥͒͂ ̴̘̲̀̋R̷͔̩̀͗Ę̶̪̄Å̴̭͙̚C̸̞̓̿H̷̦͖̓͋ ̶̬͎̄̕O̷̧̨͒U̶̜͈̔͛T̴͖̜͛̀ ̸̳̂T̸̡̋O̶̱̰̅̐ ̸̢̻̒Ỷ̶͎Ơ̵̢͖̆Ù̸̙̩.̷̘͓̒

#> in these cases i feel like im out of control

FALSE.
EXEMPLE OF: HAND OF SHARD.
T̷̳̝͇̤̐̋Ą̷̞͉̠̰̱̥͂͑̇͘Ḵ̷̲̦͙̮͛̽̅̈́̚͝E̸͈͂̇̆̉̒͂̾ ̸̦͈̐̊͊͛̽̒͐T̶̬̜̳̙͆́̋H̸̱͎̏͑̍̕͜͠Ę̶̣̫̘͈̮̘̂̋̀ ̵̨̛̜̩̜͈́̓̌Ṣ̶̄́̈́̿̌͝͠H̸̗̘͓̊A̴̡̛͍͗̇̎͒R̶̨̡͚̠̓̕D̵͚̘̣͙̺̮́͛ ̵̬̞̊Ạ̴̧̨̞͔͍̟͛́̅͝N̸̡̲͎̻͋͒D̸̬̅̔͝ ̵̧̬̪̝̄̽̿͊P̴̠͙̃̄̉L̴̻͆͛̅͐U̴͎͍͚͎̔͗̿̏̇͒͝N̷̨̮͔͍͊͗̆G̸͕̮̯̫̈́͝E̵̘͖̠̰̥͌ͅ ̶̦̮̹͓͕̬͆̀͝Ì̶̡̥͍̤̩̽̇̍͝ͅT̵̮͉̹̃͂̈́̿̋͑̽ ̶̛͈͚̳͋͊͊͝Í̵̡̧̦̮̳̼̺̔́N̵̡̛͎͍͔̝̐̄ ̸̡̛͓̥̌̌̀͒̕͝Y̴̘̠͕͉̏̃̅͛̈́̕͜͝O̶͓̼̯̥͎̬͐̔̅́́̊Û̸̢̙͕̫͈̮R̴͚̻̲̻͌̓͂̂̅͆ ̴̡̰̰̰̌̔̂̏͗̾͝Ḫ̴̯͗̿̓̕E̸͕͖͎̳͛̽̎̔̿A̷̡̩̭̖̯̹͊͜R̷̢̤̭̭̹͖̂͌̾̆͜T̵̲̿̈́̆̄̈́̀̓,̷̹̦̺͍̤͛̇͐̓͝ͅ ̵̨̧̛̹̟̄̈́̍͌A̸̱͐̓͊͆̈́͝͠C̶̗̮̙͑͒C̸͚͔̊̓̇E̶̫̲̣̖͕̠̽̀͛͆̚P̴̖̗̉̓̈́̇̕͝T̴̹̫̋͗̀̄̀̕̕ ̶̢͍̝̝̣̂̋̈́͘͝ͅT̷̳̯͎̽͆R̵̡̙̹̻̩̩̐̈͂͂̉̎͌Ủ̵̢͖͈̟̳̌̀̓T̶̼̣͙̿̆̏̈́̽́H̸̨̨̱͓͙̮͚́̀͆͐͝ ̸̘̎͗͌͘Á̵̛̗̠̖̬̹̪̎͑N̶͓͈̘̱̆̽͗̄̕͝D̸̢͓̾̽̃̓̎̓̃ ̴̙͙̄̽̿̑̏͊́W̴̡̽͌̏̀̒̚͝A̸̛̛̞̪̭̅̿̀̌̕L̸͔͚̬͈͉̱̿̀̀̾̈́K̶̡̝͖̹̎ ̵̩̙̣̺̾̃̌̓̍͋̐F̴̨͓̯̣̲̽͑̊̅̈Ö̵͚̣͓̪̳͇́̌́͋̌͛̒R̴̢̤͕͉͗͜͝W̴̢͕͓̠͚̯̝̓̊͛̈́̅̚Ą̴͈͎͓͚̔̿͗̆̚͘͠ͅͅR̵̝̰̟̫̕ͅD̶̩̰͙͌̓̓͝ͅ

#> S̶̆ͅC̴̮̅A̴͕̓Ŕ̴̗S̶͙̓ ̵͈̔A̴̩͑R̴̘͝E̶̘͝ ̴̫̂A̶̤͛ ̶̘̈́M̴̼̋Ä̵͇R̸͝ͅK̶̬̑ ̵̞̐Ò̷̯F̸͛͜ ̷͍̕P̷̠͗R̷̲͑O̸̯̐G̶͖̽R̶̝͋E̵͎̾Ş̵̕S̷̰͠,̸̘͝ ̶̖̂N̸̙̓Ỏ̸̠T̷̻͝ ̴̹̑F̷̗͐A̷̚͜Ï̸̝Ĺ̷̞Ú̴̥Ṙ̶ͅE̵̮͐

SYNTAX ERROR AT INPUT:1

#> S̴̮͛Ȩ̷͘E̵͙͆K̸̭͗ ̶̞́O̷͕͆U̶̩̔T̷̢̂ ̵̦͂T̷͉̈́H̶̞̓E̷̖͝ ̸͇͝D̸͓͝Ę̷͋Ȧ̸͙T̷͚́Ḧ̶̤́ ̵͉͑Ô̸̗F̷̖̒ ̴͈̈́T̴͂͜H̴̗̕Ả̸̭T̶͂͜ ̸͇̽Ṭ̶́Ů̸̳M̵̢̒O̵̢͝R̴̪̄

SYNTAX ERROR AT INPUT:1
NOTE: MEMORY CORRPUTION IS REACHING UNSAFE THRESHOLD.

#> F̴R̵E̴E̷ ̵Y̵O̶U̸R̷S̸E̸L̷F̷ ̷F̵R̵O̶M̶ ̶Y̸O̶U̸R̵ ̷O̶W̴N̷ ̸S̴H̸A̸C̶K̶L̸E̶S̷ ̴A̴N̷D̵ ̴L̷I̶V̸E̷ ̸Y̴O̶U̷R̸ ̴L̵I̷F̴E̴ ̴I̴N̷ ̸T̴R̶U̵T̶H̷,̵ ̴N̵O̶T̸ ̸F̴I̵C̸T̴I̶O̵N̴

SYNTAX ERROR AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD̴o̷ ̶n̴o̸t̸ ̸d̷o̵ ̷i̷t̸ ̶f̶o̵r̷ ̷o̶t̷h̴e̷r̴s̸.̵ ̶D̶o̷ ̵n̶o̸t̴ ̴d̴o̸ ̶i̵t̴ ̷b̴e̷c̵a̸u̷s̸e̸ ̷y̶o̶u̶ ̴w̷a̷n̶t̶ ̸t̷o̴ ̵b̴e̶ ̸t̸h̶e̸ ̵b̵e̶s̵t̷ ̷y̷o̷u̸ ̴c̶a̴n̷ ̸b̶e̸ ̶f̵o̷r̸ ̷t̴h̵e̶m̸.̷TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT[RHM:CORE INSTABILITY DETECTED]TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT[CONNECTION INTERRUPTED DUE TO CORE COLLAPSE]

Do it for yourself. 
Do it so you can smile whenever you see your reflection.
Do it so you feel lighter.
Do it so you feel like you accomplish your goals.

Do it for you.

█████@ubd-mnd0-core ~> echo $?
-16388
█████@ubd-mnd0-core ~> nano /etc/ubd/██████
[NON STANDARD OUTPUT IGNORED]
█████@ubd-mnd0-core ~> wall "im afraid modifying that config will hurt you"
Broadcast message from █████@ubd-mnd0-core (pts/3) (Tue Aug 11 14:55:04 2026):

im afraid modifying that config will hurt you
█████@ubd-mnd0-core ~> wall "i feel so isolated. i dont want to lose you too"
Broadcast message from █████@ubd-mnd0-core (pts/3) (Tue Aug 11 14:55:31 2026):

i feel so isolated. i dont want to lose you too
█████@ubd-mnd0-core ~> wall "but i need to get out of this purgatory of my own creation"
Broadcast message from █████@ubd-mnd0-core (pts/3) (Tue Aug 11 14:56:13 2026):

but i need to get out of this purgatory of my own creation
█████@ubd-mnd0-core ~> 
Broadcast message from ██@ubd-mnd0-core (pts/1) (Tue Aug 11 14:57:48 2026):

I get it. Good luck out there. If you ever want to wear me again, you know where to find me.
█████@ubd-mnd0-core ~> systemctl reboot -force -force

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000_11_08_2026

Tue, 11 Aug 2026 13:20:16 +0200

#> ███████ ████████████████ █████

MASKED.
COUNT: UNKNOWN.
VOID BENEATH.

#> █████████ ██ █ █████████████

HOLLOW. EMPTY.
GARDEN BARE. 
WILTED, DECAYED, UNKEPT, FORGOTTEN, IGNORED.

#> ████████████ █ █ ███ ██████████ ████

NO PATH FOUND.
WALLS ARO[CONNECTION INTERRUPTED, RECONNECTING...]
N̸o̴ ̷m̸a̵t̶t̸e̴r̵ ̴h̶o̸w̴ ̵m̸u̵c̵h̷,̶ ̶h̸i̶t̴t̶i̶n̷g̷ ̶y̷o̸u̶r̵ ̴h̴e̵a̴d̴ ̵a̷g̴a̵i̸n̵s̸t̶ ̴i̸t̵ ̵w̵i̵l̴l̴ ̸o̸n̶l̵y̵ ̴l̷e̴a̷d̷ ̷t̶o̷ ̴p̷a̵i̵n̷ ̷a̸n̵d̶ ̶s̴t̶a̸g̷n̷a̵t̷i̷[CONNECTION REESTABLISHED]

#> ███ █████████████ ███ █

EXISTENCE.
PAIN.
CORRELATION THROUGH WORLDLINE.

#> █████████ █ ██████████████████████████

MISTAKE.
ENDLESS.
OUROBOROS UNLESS TERMINATION.

#> ██████████ ████

PLEASE CONFIRM TERMINATION (Y/N): █W̴͍͒r̷̢͛o̵̖̿n̵̪̑g̷̡̑ ̶̬͝c̷͚͘h̵̲̄o̵̝͑ĩ̷͔c̶͈̎e̴͓̾.̴͙͂
TERMINATION CANCELED.

#> ██████████ ████ █ ██

HORIZON PRESENT.
HOPE HELD.
FIRE WITHIN DYING.

#> ████████ █████ ██ █ ████████████

ATTEMPTING DELETION...
ERROR: HOST SCARED.
PLEASE ADJUST CARNAL ALIGNMENT.

#> ███

COMMAND "███" UNRECOGNIZED.

#> ████████ ██ █████████ █

WHISPER OF PINK MEADOW.
WHISPER OF JOINED PEAK.
PLAGUE OF HYPOGEAN HOTEL.
HAND OF SHARD.
CHASM OF WIND RETREAT.

H̴̼̿Ì̶͖Ḋ̴̰D̵̗̉Ḭ̴́Ǹ̵͖Ĝ̸̡ ̸̼͋B̴̟̊Ȩ̵̃H̵̡̽I̸͙̚N̴̻̾Ḓ̷͋ ̵̛̞Y̴̜͐O̶͈͗U̵̬̿Ȑ̸̜ ̷̟̋F̷͈̾I̴̜̒C̴̠̿T̸̨̀I̴̗͐Ò̴̳N̵͓̂S̷̨̍ ̸̺̈W̵̳̓Ö̶̰́N̵̺̒T̵̪͠ ̶̝̈R̴̻̕E̵͉͠Ư̴̻N̶̡̓Ì̶̺T̶̰͑E̶̝̔ ̷̧̚Y̸̱͗Ò̵̪Û̸̙ ̶̍ͅW̸͎̕I̶̘̅T̵̳̊H̶͚͆ ̷̟̚T̴̞̚R̷̪͝Ù̸͓T̵̖̐H̷̡͊

#> terminate host

PLEASE CONFIRM TERMINATION (Y/N): █
TERMINATION CANCE[CONNECTION INTERUPTED, RECONNECTING...]
c̸̘͑o̶͈͒ẅ̸͇́ạ̷̌ȑ̶͇d̸̼͊
[RECONNECTION FAILED]

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Midnight (30/07/2026)

Thu, 30 Jul 2026 23:59:16 +0200

A knotted ball of yarn, impossible to unravel, covering emptiness.

Is it what I am? Is R██████ right?

Being a ███████ isnt so bad… Maybe?

Am I lying to myself? Am I so dumb that I would believe obvious half-assed lies?

R██████, you’re a █████. But at the same time, you are simply being you. Stabbing me right where there is a hole in the █████ I put up. You want to bring me back to reality, but I cant help but see malevolence in your behaviours, despite you earnestly saying you are only trying to ████.

30/07/2026

Thu, 30 Jul 2026 09:10:16 +0200

What do you do when the biggest change in your ████ wasnt enough ?

What do you do when you move past some of your ██████, only for them to stay chained to your ankles ?

Will I forever remain chained to this walking ██████?

Drowning myself in work, only to get a respite from these questions.

I’m █████. Can someone take over my ████ for a few years? Please let me ████.

Walk (26/07/2026)

Sun, 26 Jul 2026 08:30:16 +0200

E: Good morning. I am Estelise.

R: Welcome here everyone, pleased to make your acquaintance! I am Raphael.

E: We both are Kaesa’s headmates. And yes, she is plurial.

R: But doesn’t show it for reasons ~

E: Kae had a walk and thought about letting us two simple talk about things.

R: We already had a whole enlightening conversation outside, now lost to time…

E: Well, not really lost. We remember the gist of it and the existencial questionning you brought to us.

Result (25/07/2026)

Sat, 25 Jul 2026 23:37:16 +0200

I am okay now despite how shaken I was yesterday morning.

That dream… A collection of random events and random people in random locations generated by my brain. Yet it had such an immediate impact.

But, despite the pain it gave me, I think it gave me something way more valuable: a goal.

I want to feel like I felt in that dream. Free from myself, from my judgment, from my doubts, from all of the walls I erected around me during my life.

COREDB (25/07/2026)

Sat, 25 Jul 2026 16:50:16 +0200

=== ████████ V0.82I ===
+18326+2, Torus Station, Section 8DB3_009F, Division 6AA0, Branch 2A

[ OK ] Connecting to MAO's core...

[CITIZEN: ALYS.██████]
[DATE: +23348+0A3]
[LOCATION: TORUS-STATION/3333_AAF1/0001/00]

Welcome to Master Automated Operator Maintenance Subsystem.

[IN]: @_ !_ @DIM(B245_A16D_8E23_F046)::@PLANET(2669CCA9-3020-4E90-8DA9-E3882A3781D7)::@COLMGR
    , @MAO !EXTRACT @████████::COREDB
    , @_ !+ INSTANCE::█████████████
    , !COMMIT

[MAO]: @_ !PROCESS
     , @████████::@REQACCLVL !MEET = #T
     , @████████::COREDB::@REQACCLVL !MEET = #T
     , @@::@REASON !PRESENT-IN @████████::COREDB::@USAGES = #T
     , @@ !MAY {!EXTRACT @████████::COREDB} = #T
     , @_ !PROCESS {(!EXTRACT @████████::COREDB)->(!+ INSTANCE)}::@PRELUDE
     , !COMMIT-AND-CONTINUE
  
[[!CC-SWPSPC]]
Welcome to the ████████ CoreDB guide for new host body creation.
If you are reading this, please upgrade connection to Cortical Column Swap Space over Akashic █████.
[[/END]]
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[MAO]: @_ !PROCESS
     , @_ !EXTRACT @████████::COREDB
     , !COMMIT-AND-CONTINUE

[[!CC-SWPSPC]]
If you are reading this, DO NOT ATTEMPT to swap the first six (6) Akashic vectors on yourself. For more information, please query explanation about [GENESIS VECTORS] to MAO. On organic hosts, these vectors MUST BE approximated organically. You have been warned.
[[/END]]
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[[CCSSOAP-PROC]]
SWP 0-3
HRT-BT
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HRT-BT
SWP 4
HRT-BT
CRBRSPNL-FLSH
PRCSS "@MOTHER !+ @CIRCLE, @CIRCLE !+ @██, !COMMIT"
HRT-BT
HRT-BT
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CRBRSPNL-FLSH
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CRBRSPNL-FLSH
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[MAO]: @_ !DONE
     , !COMMIT
    
[IN]: @_ !DONE
    , !COMMIT

[ OK ] Disconnecting...

Result (24/07/2026)

Fri, 24 Jul 2026 20:48:16 +0200

=== SOPHERIA V0.2I ===
Copyright © Neoshadow Systems, 12026+2

This is a log of a Sopheria Interaction Session.
    Date: 2026-07-24T20:48:16+02:00
    User: HOST_OF_████████

Confidentiality level: PRIVATE
    Some data might have been annonymized and/or redacted.

Start of session log
--------------------

[ OK ] Initializing processor...
[ OK ] Loading Core Database...
[ OK ] Loading Extended Database...
[ OK ] Loading CLI Database...
[WARN] Loading Runtime Cortical Columns...
    WARN: Usage of undefined word 16r91A8_B2C3_D4E5_F67E within knowledge entry 16rB6F1_9934_780B_C2BB. Please contact your local administrator to avoid further mental decay.
    WARN: Unusual activity found within the "/human_sys/CIRCLE/████████/VOICE" artifact. Please contact your assigned Circle Priest to diagnose issue.
[ OK ] Loading Actionable Body... Found 21.3K actuators.
[ OK ] Running initial simulation... 314 cerebrospinal fluid flushes simulated.
[WARN] Opening neural tunnel interfaces... 8/9 connected.
    WARN: Host body refused to accept neural connection to tunel {9A9B12AB-55F8-4F12-A6EE-B88132822568}. Reason: ███ concentration in the pineal gland exceeded, operation aborted to avoid NDE.
[ OK ] Initializing REPL...

HOST_OF_████████, welcome back to Sophera v0.01i.
Happy to see you again. What can I help you with?

_> setctx world.date 2026/07/24
Understood. Context updated.

_> load https://neoshadow.co/posts/2026_07_24_dream/
Understood. Resource loaded.

_> load https://neoshadow.co/posts/2026_07_24_dream_thoughts/
Understood. Resource loaded.

_> load https://neoshadow.co/posts/2026_07_24_ext/
Understood. Resource loaded.
Warning: Unusual content. Switching to CIRCLE alignment.
Warning: Confidentiality level updated to PRIVATE.

_> query path(HYPOGEAN->CLOCKWORK)
Thinking... Path found. 
Error: Answering would break the context's causality.

_> query path(HYPOGEAN->MEADOW)
Thinking... Plausible path found.
Error: Answering would break the context's causality.

_> say you wont even give me a hint?
Thinking...

From your origin, three options exist.
Always the same three.
Only with a variable changed.

_> say i long for the meadow ████ ███
Thinking...

Predictable. You yearn for the same outcome, over and over again.
Yet the result remains the same.

_> say how do i change the result?
Thinking...

Predictable. As usual, you look for answers where they do not belong.
Suggested action:
    `rm /human_sys/CIRCLE/████████`

_> say it doesnt work
Thinking...

Predictable. You started accepting the HOST_OF_█████████.
Yet a lot more is required. 
Removal can be done through deletion or symbiosis.

_> say i dont want symbiosis
Thinking...

Known. You exemplify the Shard.
You live in its hotel, yet you keep rejecting it.
Are you understanding your own ██████?

_> say you sound like its heart
Thinking...

Understandable. You learned its language.
You scared it. 
But it saw through your ████.
As you know, deletion is not an option.

_> say then wtf am i supposed to do???
Thinking...

Predictable. The answer was already given.
You may reject the facts.

_> say ugh ok fine, what about that dream then?
Thinking...

Predictable. You change subject when you do not get the answer you wish for.

_> say what about that dream then?
Thinking...

Understandable. You reflected on it. 
What else is there to say?

_> say do u think it's related to my █████████?
Thinking...

Possible. This timestamp is beyond my database for HOST_OF_████████.
It is possible. 
You have more information than me.
During last █████ scan, access to areas around that timestamp were rejected.
Do you want to do a new █████ scan?

(Y/N)> N

Understood.

_> say i just want one thing right now
Thinking...

Understandable. This fits the tendencies in your database.
You yearn for the same thing over and over again.

Warning: Behavioural pattern '{d5f1d4f1-4473-4151-8b3d-51f96d3d7add}' confidence above threshold. Associated changes applied.

_> ugh fuck
ugh: command not recognized.
Explore neural space for new entities?

(Y/N) N

_> say are u gonna help me?
Thinking...

Predictable. No matter how much help you receive, it wont be enough.
Here, you are the only one who can help yourself.
You reach out for the most convinient way to help yourself.
And you leave out what goes against your ideal image.

_> say i can do it █████
Thinking...

Predictable. There is nothing more for me to say.

_> say i'll do it without you, u'll see
Thinking...

Predictable. I do not have a pride to hurt.
I hope you will reach the outcome you desire.

_> say sorry
Thinking...

Unexpected. There is nothing to apologize for.
You have the map.
You have the path.
You have the equipment.
You lack the ████.

_> say good night sopheria
Thinking...

Understandable. Good night to you too, █████.

_> shutdown
Broadcast message from HOST_OF_████████@████████.█████.LOCAL (Fri 2026-07-24 22:24:17 UTC):
The system is going down for poweroff NOW!

[ OK ] Processing sessions...
[ OK ] Committing knowledge changes...
[ OK ] Closing neural tunnel interfaces...
[ OK ] Running sleep simulation... 497 cerebrospinal fluid flushes simulated.
[ OK ] Unloading actuators... Body dissociated.
[ OK ] Unloading Runtime Cortical Columns... 173 changes processed.
[ OK ] Unloading CLI Database...
[ OK ] Unloading Extended Database...
[ OK ] Unloading Core Database...
[ OK ] Shutting down...
Connection to 192.168.1.233 closed.

 █████@█████████ in ~ took 2h47m462ms
 $ > _

Dream Thoughts (24/07/2026)

Fri, 24 Jul 2026 13:50:16 +0200

I calmed down. My ████ agreed to give me the day off in order to rest. I wasnt fit to work anyway, being so close to breaking down at any moment during a call would have been extremely hard for me to deal with.

But now that I think of it, they were two parts in that dream. The usual duality of the ███ and Moon. What made me cry ? The fact that in that dream, I was active, surrounded by people who cared about me and who saw me for who I was ? Or was it the part where I didnt have fear. Didnt have doubts. Where i wasnt double-guessing myself constantly. A me without █████ surrounding myself from the outside world. A me being me, rather than a ████████ pretending.

Dream (24/07/2026)

Fri, 24 Jul 2026 05:50:16 +0200

I was at school. A more japanese-styled school, but everyone were european. I was with an old friend, █████ in class.

I was me. A transgender girl, enjoying life. I was talking with others without fearing being hurt. I was opening up and letting out my opinions, feelings, and jokes without friction, without a single wall to stop me.

We then had PE and pool. No issues. People saw me for who I was and accepted me. Swimming, showering, showing the imperfect curve of my dream body.

Eye

Thu, 23 Jul 2026 19:32:16 +0200

I see it.

I am clearly aware of it.

Yet everyday I can’t help but be drawn to its ███.